(Thursday, October 23, 2008)
today was.. weird.
never felt so helpless in my life.
ever since the morning i started emoing le.
he was just sitting right in front of me,
but although he was near,
i felt so far away.
never in my life have i felt like this before.
its super weird.
then after that felt a little bit better,
cause didn't want to ruin anyone's mood or anything.
so just pretended to be happy and normal.
it sucked though,
through the entire omni theatre movie i turned around to look at him for more than 20 times.
i seriously don't know why i'm so crazy over him.
ah anyway series of events today..
went to science centre.
watched ppt in auditorium.
watched the grand canyon dunno what omni theatre show.
(dunno why ppl find it boring [?!])
reached school,
ate lunch,
then went back to class.
blah.
anyway went reached class
started to emo again.
didn't feel like going to piano class,
i felt so helpless all of a sudden.
cause,
now my life is just,
scolding scolding
nagging nagging.
the only time i could really be myself
is when i'm in school with my friends.
didn't feel like going piano class either.
will sure kenna scolding from ms winnie de.
then he came back to class again.
great.
so i felt even worse than worst.
went to my favourite old tree,
shihming and xiaomin followed thereafter.
i walked away faster,
wasn't it obvious that i wanted to be alone?
then i heard aiyi scream my name super loud,
i turn around and saw him sitting there,
with a whole bunch of girls behind pointing down at him.
o.o
like i didn't have enough to bear.
so i walked away.
shihming and weiting ran over and gave me my phone,
say dunno what he wanted to call me?
i only wanted some peace so i could cool down.
then he smsed me.
i dunno what went through my head
neither did i know how i felt
sort of happy and angry.
its weird, these mixed up feelings.
he acted like as though he really cared.
but nvm.
i just don't understand why everytime i almost want to give up on him he'll do something to make me unable to do so.
it sucks.
all i need is for him to tell me in the face that he'd never like me, not even in a million years or something like that. 长痛不如短痛... right?
ohwells.
don't wanna say anymore.
crapppppy day.
but feeling much better now.
thanks to: weiting, yanting, xiaomin, aiyi, yuxuan, shihming, sining (: oh. and zc. sort of.
hahah.'
ok bye..
love;
!nicole:}
never felt so helpless in my life.
ever since the morning i started emoing le.
he was just sitting right in front of me,
but although he was near,
i felt so far away.
never in my life have i felt like this before.
its super weird.
then after that felt a little bit better,
cause didn't want to ruin anyone's mood or anything.
so just pretended to be happy and normal.
it sucked though,
through the entire omni theatre movie i turned around to look at him for more than 20 times.
i seriously don't know why i'm so crazy over him.
ah anyway series of events today..
went to science centre.
watched ppt in auditorium.
watched the grand canyon dunno what omni theatre show.
(dunno why ppl find it boring [?!])
reached school,
ate lunch,
then went back to class.
blah.
anyway went reached class
started to emo again.
didn't feel like going to piano class,
i felt so helpless all of a sudden.
cause,
now my life is just,
scolding scolding
nagging nagging.
the only time i could really be myself
is when i'm in school with my friends.
didn't feel like going piano class either.
will sure kenna scolding from ms winnie de.
then he came back to class again.
great.
so i felt even worse than worst.
went to my favourite old tree,
shihming and xiaomin followed thereafter.
i walked away faster,
wasn't it obvious that i wanted to be alone?
then i heard aiyi scream my name super loud,
i turn around and saw him sitting there,
with a whole bunch of girls behind pointing down at him.
o.o
like i didn't have enough to bear.
so i walked away.
shihming and weiting ran over and gave me my phone,
say dunno what he wanted to call me?
i only wanted some peace so i could cool down.
then he smsed me.
i dunno what went through my head
neither did i know how i felt
sort of happy and angry.
its weird, these mixed up feelings.
he acted like as though he really cared.
but nvm.
i just don't understand why everytime i almost want to give up on him he'll do something to make me unable to do so.
it sucks.
all i need is for him to tell me in the face that he'd never like me, not even in a million years or something like that. 长痛不如短痛... right?
ohwells.
don't wanna say anymore.
crapppppy day.
but feeling much better now.
thanks to: weiting, yanting, xiaomin, aiyi, yuxuan, shihming, sining (: oh. and zc. sort of.
hahah.'
ok bye..
love;
!nicole:}