freak it. (Sunday, May 3, 2009)
I don't understand.
I don't understand my own father.
I know he has work stress and all. I know its accumulating up in him, and he has to find some way to let go of it.
He tells me that i add on to his problems. He tells me that my problems become his.
I really don't know what to say. I didn't ask them to wait for me till i finished my work.
I didn't ask them to stay up till 2am.
It gets freaking irritating when he tells and harps on all this when this one week i've been quite okay. He'll always say 'these few days we have to stay up till 2am to wait for her to finish her work'.
HELLOOOO? these few days? exaggerative much?
I cherish my family and my parents alot. Really. I would never want to make them angry.
I just don't freaking understand why they make themselves angry and tell me its my doing.
I just don't freaking understand.
If i can cherish them, why can't they cherish me?
they KNOW my attention span is low and i'll get drifted off with another thing when i do my work. but please, why can't you just understand that and let me handle my own things, bearing my own consequences?
Dad, you ALWAYS think you're right, you ALWAYS tell mum off because of the things she dos wrong/ doesn't do. but think about dad, not that i'm being rude or anything, but when have YOU done all the things you PREACH?
you tell mum to be more patient. its true that your patience is better than mum's, but whenever you get just a little unhappy, you'll have this barrier around your head, and thats why you cannot accept ANYTHING that i tell you. you tell me you don't have that barrier.
ah whatever.
i know all this will blow off.
i just hope its soon.
i love you dad and mum.
really.
and i'm sorry for making you two angry.
please try not to assume things and make yourself angry,
thanks.
love,
nicole.
I don't understand my own father.
I know he has work stress and all. I know its accumulating up in him, and he has to find some way to let go of it.
He tells me that i add on to his problems. He tells me that my problems become his.
I really don't know what to say. I didn't ask them to wait for me till i finished my work.
I didn't ask them to stay up till 2am.
It gets freaking irritating when he tells and harps on all this when this one week i've been quite okay. He'll always say 'these few days we have to stay up till 2am to wait for her to finish her work'.
HELLOOOO? these few days? exaggerative much?
I cherish my family and my parents alot. Really. I would never want to make them angry.
I just don't freaking understand why they make themselves angry and tell me its my doing.
I just don't freaking understand.
If i can cherish them, why can't they cherish me?
they KNOW my attention span is low and i'll get drifted off with another thing when i do my work. but please, why can't you just understand that and let me handle my own things, bearing my own consequences?
Dad, you ALWAYS think you're right, you ALWAYS tell mum off because of the things she dos wrong/ doesn't do. but think about dad, not that i'm being rude or anything, but when have YOU done all the things you PREACH?
you tell mum to be more patient. its true that your patience is better than mum's, but whenever you get just a little unhappy, you'll have this barrier around your head, and thats why you cannot accept ANYTHING that i tell you. you tell me you don't have that barrier.
ah whatever.
i know all this will blow off.
i just hope its soon.
i love you dad and mum.
really.
and i'm sorry for making you two angry.
please try not to assume things and make yourself angry,
thanks.
love,
nicole.